“When I read this story by an anonymous author one year ago, I promised myself that I would read it on that special day when the bells are ringing and the silverware are clinking with the crystals. I still intend to keep that promise. But now I feel a certain responsibility to share this to all of you. So before you start ending promises or breaking any vows and end up asking yourself why you had to let go, read this first. Maybe this can help. Dreams do come true. I never believed in that myself until I had one. And I promised that the sun really shines eternally even in the spotless mind. This is to all Clementines out there…”
My husband is an Engineer by profession. I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders. Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I have to admit, that I’m getting tired of it. The reasons of me for loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.
I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings, I yearn for romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love. One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce. “Why?” he asked, shocked. “I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!” I answered. He kept silent the whole night. He seems to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times. My feelings of disappointment only increased.
Here is a man who can’t even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked me: “What can I do to change your mind?” somebody said it right, its hard to change a person’s personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him. Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered: “Here is a question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind. Let’s say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?” He said: “I will give you your answer tomorrow…” My hope sank by listening to his response.
I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and I saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the table near the front door, that goes…
“My dear, I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain the reasons further…” This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading. “When you use the computer, you always mess up the software programs, and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can restore the programs. You always leave the house keys behind, thus, I have to save my legs to rush home to open the doors for you. You love traveling but you always lose your way in the new city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way. You always have the cramps whenever your “good friend” approaches every month, I have to save my palm so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy. You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism, I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom. You always stare to the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help clip you nails and help remove those annoying white hairs, and hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand… and tell you the color of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face… Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more that I do… I could not pick that flower yet, and die.”
My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting… and as I continue on reading… “Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk…”
I rushed to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread. Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone.
That’s life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness. Love shows up in all forms, even small and cheekyforms, it has never been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form, flowers and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands… and that’s our life… Love, not words win arguments…